Stupid Pain

Holes in my holy mouth. There are too much of them and they caused me too much headache. I couldn't even sleep when they are giving me too much problems. Had no cash to cure them now and I don't want to get rid any of my precious teeth. I love them all. I intend to treat them using the root canal technology as suggested by Joe. But it will cost me more than I could to afford the operation. I put it on hold as I only can afford it in another few coming months. Not now, not until now.

Karma

How I wish life is not this difficult. Some burden should not be lifted on my shoulder, but I still carry them on. How I wish I could turn back the time and reset this whole life. I guess it is impossible to turn such thing back on the right track. I still have to go on with or without it.

I could remember one day, when I was a lil kid. This particular incident where I should never mention it, happened to me. Forced by circumstances, I have to live with it. Now, that particular incident had brought me into the other side of me. Only just now, I realized it. It happened again few years back, almost similar but the consequences were still the same. This time, it was me who decided on it. I regret it now but I could not do anything to rewind it back. I have to live on with this pain.

Sometimes I feel like I try to neglect the responsibility or maybe to get away by forgetting it for a new thing. I guess it hurts me more, deeper than before. I believe it is the 'Karma' which some people may say it is the fate which has been written all the way before we were born. I do not believe it is the fate but it is the consequences. All deeds are meant to be given back to us. Now that happens to me. I've been paid back by the stronger force.

I believe in that and I will always remember that. Somehow, life is not a bed of roses. Ups and downs are meant to be attached with us as we have chosen the path before we start to journey our life.

Opening Ceremony on January 2011

This will be the first entry for this blog. I don't know what should I write now but my intention in starting this blog is to write about what do I feel and what do I think on anything, merely everything in this world and the after life, if I'm capable to do that. I hope I can share my own experience, my observation and anything related to me to the world. Hope that the use of my bad English, that is of course caused by my own writing, would not be a major problem for me to convey my ideas and thoughts through this blog. I'm just an ordinary guy who lives in the ordinary world of mine. Hope the readers will enjoy reading my future entries. God bless!